(written March 2014, edited November 2014)
In early to mid-August, I was feeling the demands of growth in both my home skincare business and my job at the church. I felt I was doing what I was supposed to be doing, but were quite loaded with responsibility and all the options for growing both seemed right at my doorstep. In a moment with the Lord, I asked Him, “What are we doing?” (Meaning: What’s the plan?) He clearly answered me, “You don’t need to know.” With sort of a shrug of the shoulders, I thought, “Okay, I don’t guess I really need to know.” I knew I could easily just continue to live each day as it came, with an ear always cocked toward heaven for direction. I felt peace with His response.
Then on August 21, 2012, I was reading 1 Corinthians 12-14 in my Change Your Life Daily Bible (NLT 1996 translation). As I read verse 12 of chapter 14, “Since you are so eager to have spiritual gifts, ask God for those that will be of real help to the whole church,” my spirit unexpectedly stepped out in front of me and asked God, "What’s mine. Before I could blink, He quickly answered, "Creating wealth." I heard the words clearly. Still startled at what had just happened, I just as quickly retorted back, "But I'm a pastor!" (“Is that even a spiritual gift?” I thought.) He immediately responded, "My people need money." I so knew this was true, I almost chuckled back with a “duh.” In fact, I’m pretty sure He heard that deep down in my spirit. It was funny to me that He would tell me something I was so aware of. As my heart was nodding in agreement, He continued, “And I need ways to channel money to them.” He paused and then He said, "I need you to partner with Me in this." And with that, I was fully wrecked. I couldn’t ever remember God so directly and tenderly calling me out. Through my tears and brokenness, I agreed. I had no idea where we were headed, but I knew there was no answer but, “Yes, Lord.”
More to come . . .